The Siao Char Bor

Woof and Robin

2011-02-04T14:50:00.001+08:00

These 2 guys are both out of my league in the sense that I cant get them. For woof, he doesn't like me. For Robin, he's attached & I like him as a colleague + as a fren but not as much as I like Woof.

Though I know that I dun really like Woof that much now ald but I will nv stoop to the level of snatching someone else bf. Unless robin break up wif his gf and come after me, otherwise I'll nt consider him as a potential bf. He might be kinda confused abt his feelings for me but I hope that after our conversation yesterday, he'll be clearer abt his feelings for steph. Haiz, 7 yrs of r/s is reali a long time... Hope that they will last...

Woofie

2010-09-27T22:12:00.001+08:00

Yup I'm in love with the guy whose name is the title of this blog entry. But I'm a coward who dun dare to let him knw the truth. Went out wif him once & that outing only serves to determine that I really like him. I like the way how he can camwhore unabashedly in front of me & laugh at my various antics. I like the way he smile at me & try to make me spend money. Well he def succeeded cos I really can't control myself when it comes to spending money.

I think the Royce chocolate chips was the most memorable part of our outing. I wanted to try that ever since Elaine told me abt last yr but I nv got ard to buying it till I saw the Royce shop at Ion wif him.

It's finally over!

2010-06-20T19:20:00.001+08:00

I can safely say tat I'm over him. It's a cause for celebration. :)

I tink it's really time to pursue my own happiness now. :)

What will happen in April 2010?

2010-03-19T21:42:00.001+08:00

It's a month of uncertainty for me. I dunno whether I'll be able to cope with handling the wards' care/discharge problems as it's gg to be overwhelming being in the medical team. It's def nt something that is easy to deal with.

On the other hand I dunno if I'll even stay on in e first place cos I've nt sign on e dotted line so anything can still happen during the last min.

Last year's April was a very sad month as I broke up with Calvin. It was very unexpected but I've learnt to let go of this r/s & I'll go on to make new friends.

On the 5th of April 2010 when the only link that bond Calvin & I tgt is settled, it'll reali be the end of both our r/s. This will oso bring some peace to me. I'll nt be able to hv total peace of mind but at least I can do something at last.

Hopefully I will be able to get on with my néw life from then on. Hopefully is the word.

Haunted by the ghost of the untold story

2010-02-28T21:47:00.001+08:00

Yup still feeling haunted by the past every now and then. It's been 5 long yrs but it felt juz like yesterday.

The sense of loneliness & helplessness is still there. It has nvr disappear. The feeling of gg thru e biggest mistake of my life by myself is frightening! Although it's a mistake committed by 2 person but it felt as if it's committed by me alone.

As the date draws nearer & nearer, I can't help looking into the mirror & call myself undesirable names!

I am sorry sweetheart! I am so sorry!

Graduation ceremony in Aug 2010

2010-02-28T15:59:00.001+08:00

Yup got my transcript on 22nd of feb. Told my boss abt it e next day & her first qns was if I pass everything. I said yes & she congratulated me. So far she hasn't told me anything abt my jobscope yet. But I guess she prob need the weekend to tink abt more concrete plans for me. Most likely she'll talk to me by this week.

It's either I stay or leave by April 1st. If I dun agree with e jobscope & the pay then most likely i'll leave & find another job as a counsellor somewhere else.

My degree frens has been asking me if I'll go for the grad ceremony in Perth this aug. Frankly speaking, I dunno yet. I dun see the pt in gg if nobody frm my family are cmg to see it. I rather juz stay at Hm & save my $$.

I am still very undecided cos if I start my post grad course in July, it's gg to be quite hard for me to go Perth also. Anyway see how bah.

Vivo city wif Sharon, qiqi & Justin foo

2010-02-21T18:35:00.001+08:00

Met my dears at vivo city last nite for dinner. It's fun catching up with them & talking abt abt our individual lives after we finished e degree classes.

Glad tat Qiqi is wif Justin cos he seems like a reali guai & nice guy. Hope tat they'll treasure each other & hv a smooth sailing r/s.

Sharon is changing job scope in her current company. She seems to be reali looking forward to it & I hope that everything will go well for her too.

As for me, I told them abt how Calvin thot I was pregnant & how I spent my CNY avoiding, arguing & finally telling him the 'truth'. Haha! I would say that this sounds like the biggest conspiracy of all times!

Mtg Vania tmr at Illuma for dinner. Seems like she is kinda troubled in her family situation. I hope tat it's nothing too serious! May GOD bless her!

Tmr is the beginning of another week. Gonna be getting my transcript soon. Gg to be facing a new challenge in my life. Time to come out of my comfort zone.

Broke up again

2010-02-19T22:44:00.001+08:00

Yup we patched bk on Nov 25th 09 & broke up again on Jan 22nd 10.

He nvr kept any of the promises which he made on e day we patched up. I feel so tired. But nvm, it's gd tat we broke up. I need a new life.

I need to breathe again. I'll suffocate if I had continued to be wif him. I knw I'll not give up trying to salvage the r/s so it's better that he suggested the break-up.

By letting me go is probably the best decision that he has ever made cos he knw that he is not capable of giving me the happiness that I want.

My heart dun hurt as much as e time when he broke up W me in Apr 09. Guess it's due to how he treated me when we patched up in Nov 09. He's juz nt worth my love & effort.

We are still civilized to each other but I dun reali feel like seeing or talking to him ald. Deleted him off my fb, deleted his number frm my hp too.

This time, I'm determined to get over him & move on. It's over... It's finally really over...

Swimming & dinner at his place

2009-11-01T23:51:00.002+08:00

Went for a swim with him at his place str8 after class. Was actually thinking of mtg him after I finish my essay but since he asked me to go 4 a swim so I agreed. Anyway I already knew what I wanna write for the essay already so I just go ahead with the swim.

The water was abit cold and after we swam a few laps in the pool, it started to feel warmer. He pulled me close to him & hugged me to his chest from behind a few times whenever we took a rest after swimming one lap in the pool. I like the feeling of being so close to him & it just felt like I have never left his side all these while.

After swimming, I slept for an hr on his bed while he watched "Angels and Demons" on his PC. Woke up & then had the chicken rice dinner which his maid cooked. After dinner he nagged at me to start on my essay and then he went to take a nap. Haha, started snoring after awhile, which is so typical of him. Finally finished writing & editing my essay after nearly 2 hrs. Yeah! So happy!!

After subitting the essay, we were lying on the bed tgt & I asked him if he like me the most out of all the gals whom he has dated all these 6 mths & he said that he still have the most feelings for me.

I also asked him abt the other 2 gals who wanted to be his gf & why he didn't choose them. He said that they are about 24-25 yrs old & abit too immature for him, plus he din have feelings for them so it wun work out.

So basically i got some answers from him & so far things are quite positive. After our little chat, we went for mango dessert at the HK cafe at siglap. After we parked the car when we were walking to the cafe, he took the initiative to hold my hand. Even when we walked back to the car after dessert, it was the same thing too. I was feeling a bit weird abt it but i just pretended that nothing extraordinary was happening.

Today I met him again after discussing about the assignment with Shirley & Elaine. Went to his house and then took Sandy boy for a walk. That crazy dog doesnt know how to walk in a str8 line. He only knows how to walk in a zig zag manner, its terrible! When I hold Sandy's leash, Calvin just held my other hand automatically. Hmm so its not a one off thingy.

We went to Tampines Mall for dinner at Ding Tai Fung and we walked ard abit while waiting for a table & we were also holding hands. Basically it is like we are back tgt, just that he didnt wanna make it official yet till the 24th of Nov 2009. I just hope that everything will go well & he will stand firm in his decision to patch up with me even when there are other gals or pple who might try to jeopardize our r/s.

Feeling warm inside my heart

2009-10-29T20:48:00.004+08:00

Went to pick him up last nite after his flight at T2. First time seeing him in his pilot uniform and cap. Hmmm... Somehow felt tat he looks too young in that cos maybe I am too used to seeing older pilots. Or rather I used to see his dad wearing those clothes & kinda felt tat his dad's image has become my perception of how old a guy should look like when they are wearing e uniform. Haha! But he really looks cute & handsome in the uniform though. I think I got a thing for guys in uniform. Kikiki!

We went White Sands' Macs to eat apple pies as he said that he felt like something to munch on. Was there for abt half an hr chatting about stuff.

Sent him home and when e security guards at his condo asked me if I am dropping him off or parking my car, I looked at him first and he asked:" so how?" He was actually looking at me with an expected look at my face, like as if he is kinda hoping that I will stay. But I replied the security guard:"Dropping off." The guard waved me through and then he asked me why. I replied saying that its late already as it was 11:20pm by then. "Oh ya, you still have to work tmr." was his reply.

I dropped him off at his block's lobby and he went to take out his bag & cap from the boot. He kissed my forehead and thanked me after I asked him if he has got everything with him. He hugged me to him and just held me in his arms without the intention of letting me go. I wrapped my arms around him and put my head on his chest. I take in the familiar smell of him on his clothes and everything feels just like in the past when we used to hug each other.

I asked him:" Do I get a big big kiss tonight so that I will sleep well?"
He replied "No, U will only get a small kiss." Then he proceed to kiss my forehead.
I said "the kiss will only last me till 3am. "
He replied no again.
Then I looked up at him and said: "But I send U here."
Haha then he bo bian & kissed me on my lips. I said not enough and he kissed me again. :)

Then he complained saying that I never kiss him. Then from the corner of my eye, I saw a taxi turning in and I quickly gave him a kiss on his cheek. Haha all these happened while we were still hugging each other. Think the cab driver saw us standing that way for at least the last 30 seconds.

I said "goodbye" to him & he waved back before picking up his bag. He told me to be careful of the cab as he thought that the cab is going to drive past me in the small carpark but the cab stopped behind my car instead.

In my heart I was cursing the cab driver for appearing at the wrong timing cos I could have gotten more kisses from him if nobody was around then. Damn!

But it was fun though cos the whole process brought me back to the past when we used to bargain over the number & size of kisses we should give each other sometimes. Haha!

Lennon is away

2009-10-05T14:49:00.002+08:00

Ya he is away frm today till Thursday. Haha nobody to disturb while I am in class tonight. Kinda getting used to crapping with him whenever I am free.

Its usually like this. U wun knw how much U miss a person until that person is gone. Yup so now I knw how much I miss him already.

I hate essay writing!

2009-10-04T15:16:00.002+08:00

Geez I wish I dun have to do this essay! Grrrr!

Chicken rice dinner with Calvin

2009-09-08T23:00:00.000+08:00

Had a good chicken rice dinner with Calvin just now. Was leaving CCK at 8pm when I suddenly have a craving to eat chicken rice at 5 stars Chicken RIce at Joo Chiat. Called him up & met him in 25 mins. Ya drove like a mad woman cos I was hungry. Heehee!

Had a nice dinner but the I was the only one eating while he accompanied me. The bill came up to $9.60 cos we ordered 2 Luohan Guo drink which is like $2.20 per cup! Nuts!

To compensate me, Calvin bgt 2 mangoes for me. Haha! There was this fruits stall that was selling giantic mangoes at 4 for $12, so he bgt 2 for himself & 2 for me. I saw them selling custard apples for $4 each so I bgt one to eat. Its been like more than 15 yrs since I last ate one. Haha! My paternal grandma's house used to grow custard apples so I had fond childhood memories of eating nice ones.

Bz wk ahead

2009-09-06T19:48:00.001+08:00

Had a nice time with Calvin on fri evening as we went to do the screen protectors for our iPhones. It's weird tat we seems to have more things to tok abt after we break up. Also becos we knw so much abt each others family details so we can oso tok abt tat aspect freely too. Think for us we started out too fast without being frens for a longer period of time. I shall not make the same mistake when it comes to my next bf. I oso hope tat I will make the rite choice next time.
The way tat I look at my schedule nowadays is that I am having lesser and lesser free time 4 myself. But the gd news is tat this shld nt continue beyond dec. Hopefully! Haha!
Anyway things between Lennon and me are still pretty much at the exploration stage so there isn't much to update. But I can say tat he is flirty in the things he say to me. We will be gg out for frogs legs porridge or jap buffet the next time. He is travelling from 14-16th sept so I wun see him during tat wk I guess.
I tink I still prefers those guys who are more guai. Haha but it's hard to find a perfect guy or perfect woman so I shld nt complain too much.

2nd date part 2

2009-09-04T10:02:00.001+08:00

Hmmm the apps doesn't allows me to post then edit the posts so nw I gotta post again. Was interrupted by lemon's msn MSG juz now.
So anyway I closed my eyes a lot during the gruesome parts and lose my appetite for dinner. Din have dinner earlier cos the movie was at 7pm and we went shopping for my iPhone cover first. Managed to get a nice pink cover for $28 at singtel shop . It's actually the same as wat lemon is using except that his is the normal brown leather color. I like the cover though. Later gg to meet Calvin to get the plastic invisible shield screen protector which will wrap the entire iphone's front and back. It has lifetime warranty and it's supposedly scratch proof.
After the movie we went for prawn noodles at joo chiat but I din finish the noodles cos i lose my appetite after watching the show or it could juz have been the nachos that we had during the movie which spoil my dinner.
We had a nice time chit chatting again and he is the type who reali knows wat to say to a gal to make her feel gd or laugh. He is crappy but nt lame. But then sometimes I can't help but feel tat the things he says are too polished and he has said them to a lot of diff gals b4. Nw we are still at the exploration stage and I wanna give him more benefit of the doubt. Will wanna get to knw him more 1st. Haha at least he is not trying to sell me something as wat Angela was worried abt initially.
Even if we don't proceed or advance beyond a couple relationship, I'm still glad to have a crappy guy fren like him haha!
Ok that is all for nw. Reach cck mrt ald! Ciaos pple!

2nd date with lemon

2009-09-04T09:40:00.001+08:00

Haha ya there was a 2nd date wif him. We went to tamp mall to watch final destination 4 which was a pretty gruesome show to me and I din enjoy those parts whereby the blood and pieces of flesh were flying abt. But the 3d effect were gd.

Meeting my new date 4 the very 1st time

2009-08-28T21:47:00.000+08:00

Haha, it has been abit of an adventure for my colleagues when I told them that I am finally going on a date exactly 4 mths after breaking up with Calvin. They were all so excited for me & the 5-6 of us were having fun emailing each other back & forth discussing about my new date on Wed. I think they def made me feel more excited abt my date. Heehee!

It all started on wed morning when I told TT, XDH, ELR, TPY & KCW thru email that I am gg to meet a guy that very evening. So they were asking me about the new guy & all that stuff. After which it proceeded to talking about where & when I will be meeting him. After work, as ELR, TT & me were hanging at XDH's cubicle waiting 4 him to sms when he is supposed to reach at 6:15pm, they asked me to show ELR his pics & all that. Oh ya ELR even told me to bring along the shrill alarm that CGH gave to everyone of us in the dept along & she personally tested it out for me in the office b4 handing it to me & saying "Yes it works!" Haha! She also say that maybe he has arrived but just that it might be he reached too early, so he didn't wanna sms me first in order not to appear too eager. She so funny! In fact these few younger colleagues are super fun to be with.

Then TT started to hit on the idea of checking him out 1st. She suggested gg to the HDB carpark immediately to see if he has arrived yet & check out his looks, car, etc 1st. I gave them his car number & the color of the car. That time was around 6:05pm & XDH took out her really nerdy pair of black specs so that she can see things clearer & to help me scrutinize my new date. :)

ElR couldn't go with them as she need to rush out a suicide report. We din think of informing KCW as we didn't knw that she was over at the new office. Haha! I thot that she was still up in the wards. Too bad she miss out on that exciting part. She wanted so much to be part of the "stalker" team. Wahahah! So about 8 mins after TT & XDH left the office, TT called me very excitedly. "He's here, he's here!! His car just turn in!!" Haha! She made me feels quite excited too!

"His car got the thingy on the back one!!" TT says. "oh U mean a spoiler!" I replied. "YA YA! He just parked his car!. Think he's messaging U now!" True enough I received an sms from him saying that he's here. I left the office & walked to the HDB carpark & I met them behind the HDB carpark. Haha! Then they told me that when they reached, he hasn't arrived yet, so they actually walked the length of the whole block to look for his car. Its only when they walked back then they saw his car turning in. They couldn't really see his front view due to the structure of the carpark & also they can't make it too obvious that they were looking at him.

Haha! After chatting for a min more, I plucked p my courage to walk to the carpark to meet him. He was as what they said, standing in front of his car, wearing rather smart office clothes, playing on his iphone. He looked up when he heard me approaching, smiled at me & said "Hi". I asked him if it was difficult finding the way cos he confessed during our online chat that he wasn't very gd with directions & he wasn't really familiar with the east as he lives in Yishun even though he work in Loyang.

We started out talking about the iphone which was the topic that got him making the first move to talk to me on FB chat. After we arrived at Miss U cafe, we managed to get a nice table & both of us ordered pasta. We had soup, garlic bread, pastas & drinks. We had a nice time chatting about work, life, ex bfs & ex gfs, abit about our families etc. I felt really comfortable talking to him & we had a lot of eye contact. He offered to let me play with his iphone for awhile so that I can get a feel of it & I realized that the download speed of internet web pages were really much faster.

Halfway thru the dinner i received about 3 sms from TT asking me how was everything & also how they had gone back to the office to google his name and make sure that he wasn't lying about being the regional manager of his company. Ok so they found his name & his company email address.

He asked me if I wanna order any desserts from the cafe but I said no cos i knew that the desserts there wasn't really that great except for the New Zealand ice cream. Then he asked me if I wanna go somewhere else & then I suggested gg to Siglap for Haagen Daaz ice cream & he agreed.

I had to direct him there too and we continue to chit chat during the car ride. We sat at 1 corner and ordered a banana split & he said that his fav ice cream is strawberry while he hates Almond stuff. Haha! I ate most of the ice cream in the end cos he stopped eating after a few bites. Guess he was quite full after the dinner cos he finished everything on his plate while I didn't finish my pasta. I paid for the ice cream cos i dun feel nice if he pays for everything. We chatted till about 10:15pm & I asked him "shall we go?" Cos I was feeling a bit tired & I still have to go CCK the next day.

On the way back, He asked me "Is this the Lennon Teo that U were expecting?" To be honest I was abit shocked to hear that question. But I answered "well, more or less I guess. Just don't give me a childish boy on the first date." He laughed & said "So I cant let out my boy side to U ar?" I answered "Maybe after a few dates, dun scare me off now."

Inside me, I was saying to myself that I really have enough of guys who refuse to grow up & all that, I dun need another guy who is like that. I knw that all men are boys at the end of the day but at least I feel that this new date does have a side of him which is serious, mature & capable in making decisions fast when its required of him. I need a guy who is able to handle big things efficiently instead of me feeling that I have to be the one to make decisions fast when a situation crop up. I need someone who can make decisions & I will be the supporting role instead. Of cos I will still retain my ability to make decision when needed just that I don't wanna have the feeling that I am babying someone else anymore. Luckily at least the new date is 3 yrs older & perfectly capable of buying his own car already.

So when he send me home, he dropped me at my void deck & then I thanked him for everything b4 coming outta his car. Hope he din have a hard time finding his way back. When we see each other online later, we continue chatting & arranged to meet again for a movie. So ya there's a 2nd date.

Thursday went back to the office & updated the gals about my date with him. They were really supportive & encouraging. Also very happy to see me moving on & gg on dates with other guys. I remember TPY being very worried about me when I lost my appetite the 1st 2 weeks after the break up. I feel that there are a few colleagues who are sincerely concerned abt me & I really appreciate that! Thank U gals!

Shall update more abt the 2nd date next wk!

Cant wait for my iphone!!

New semester schedule

2009-08-23T14:47:00.000+08:00

Its just nuts! Both subjects has 2 assignments. The subject with 2 assignments & exam is taught by a dreaded lecturer whom half the class has given very bad evaluations. I wonder why she is still being asked to come back & teach? Super unprofessional lecturer who is more concern about her own pleasure in meeting her friends than in answering her student's assignment questions.

I dread to see her again man. I can foresee myself to have severe monday blues! Her lessons are dry & boring which makes us tune out in less than 30 mins! How I wish every lecturer can be half as interesting as Chris Fong! Haiz! Am I asking for too much?

Oh ya, some guy that I know online ask me out for dinner on wed. Time to know more friends. Just hope that my busy schedule will permit me to know more friends too. Doesn't have to be just guys.

Next sat will be going to the Natas fair with TT, XDH, ELR, KCW to research for Jan 2010's BKK trip. I can't wait to go on that trip man! Retail therapy! I will really get ready about $1000 to spend on that trip! Don't care liao! Wahahaha!

Its getting more & more tiring nowadays.

2009-08-19T21:13:00.000+08:00

With 2 colleagues down on MC, the workload is just crazy! Its really back breaking & tiring! Wish I can split myself into half sometimes. Then tmr I gg to CCK, I think the rest of my colleagues will go nuts man! Wish them gd luck!

When is my iphone coming? My colleagues says that she managed to get a reply from singtel after registering her interest for 2 wks. Its has been more than 2 weeks for me!!! ARGH!!!

The new Iphone!

2009-08-10T00:26:00.002+08:00

I can't wait to buy the new iphone cos it really seems quite cool & Singtel allows us to keep our existing plans while we sign up for the broadband on mobile plans which is def cheaper than getting the Iflexi plans. Which means more savings for me! Yay! I have already registered my interest for the new iphone & I can upgrade my contact on 17th Aug! Can't wait for them to contact me man! Yeah!!!

Better as friends

2009-08-04T22:52:00.000+08:00

Yup, finally finished my exams! Yeah! Finally can concentrate fully on my attachment for the next 3 to 4 weeks! I wanna clock as much hrs as possible lor! Wanna fast fast finish the attachment man! Its killing me! I seriously wonder hw I can have so much energy to do so much things in a wk sometimes. Maybe cos I am single now, so I got space to breath.

I pity Calvin that time when I was so busy with many things. I basically neglected him & all that. Anyway speaking abt Calvin, I think I'm more or less over him already. Think it has been about nearly 2 wks since i told myself to just let go of him fully & know that we are not fated to be tgt now. So when i managed to tell myself that, my heart stopped pining for him & start healing. Now wat's left is a scar to remind myself of this 6 years and 7 mths R/S. Oh well, time to move on.

So on Sunday I met him for a swim & dinner & we were totally very comfortable with each other. We talked, laughed & joked like old friends. But the only part that we were uncomfortable abt was the how to address each other part. Cos we have calling each other "dear" or "baby" for the whole of our r/s!! We only call each other by names when we wanna scold each other. Haha! And we call each other by the full names when we are extremely angry. Heehee!

Oh ya, apparently some gal likes him and she is studying in perth now. Ex teacher, same age as him. Knw each other 4 a mth, fren of a fren. Then she was angry with him cos he went out for dinner or was it movie with another fren of hers followed by some drinks after that. Then the perth gal came to knw of it & told him over msn that she is angry with him. So I told him that he can look at it both positively & negatively. Positive part is cfm that she likes him. Negative part is she got no right to be jealous so early when she's not even his gf yet. From that, I foresee that she is gg to be a jealous, possessive & controlling gf in the future. I mean which gal will tell a guy that she is jealous so early? Most gals will remain cool or pretend to be cool at least.

But no matter what, I hope that she really likes Calvin for who he is & not because he is a pilot. I knw that gals will be very attracted to his status as a pilot 1st & they might not knw whether if they like him for his status or because they really find him very nice. Some gals juz wanna hook a pilot 1st & spend their $$ w/o thinking of anything else. I mean, I juz dun want him to be hurt. Though we can't be tgt but I still care a lot for him as a friend & I hope that he will be happy.

I won't try to break up his r/s with his next gf. I only want him to be happy. Its juz like how I hope that he will wish me all the best in my next r/s too. I will offer advice if he ask for it but I will NOT do any underhand things to him or his next GF. Its juz not right to do that.

I believe in retribution. Nvr ever spoil a r/s that is not ur own. That's why I nvr believe in saying too much bad things abt my fren's other halves in front of them unless they ask or unless I really see some really bad things abt them. Cos I dunno them that well & its not fair to pass judgments based on just that few hours of meeting that I have with them. Its not the full picture that i saw. After all, they might have their nice sides that I don't see & if wat I said really breaks up a couple, I find it very sinful lor. Cos its not good to influence people that way. I believe that its only the pple in the r/s themselves who should know & understand what's gg on in their r/s best & they shld make the better judges.

After all, many of my frens have said very bad things about Calvin based on certain things but then I have nvr broke up with him becos of their comments. To me, What matters to me most are my feelings for him. I mean I am thankful 4 their advices & comments but I am my own judge. I have my own brains to think for myself.

Ok its quite a long post! Ciaos for now. Need to slp liao. Juz dealt with 12 super duper notty monkeys this afternoon. Super draining!

Exams later on

2009-08-03T16:15:00.000+08:00

Wish me luck for the exams later on!!! Though its MCQ but then I hope that everything will be straight forward & easy~

Updates!

2009-07-27T20:46:00.002+08:00

Been buying a few more dresses online. Mom says that my cupboard is def bursting. Heehee!

Saw 1 more case on fri. Complicated one. Financial cum family violence cum marital problems cos husband is suffering from mental illness. Def wun qualify for financial assistance cos she got 15K in cash. Emailed supervisor cos gg to see client tmr. Supervisor will sit in with me tmr & might be taking over the case if necessary but depends on situation. If client dun wanna work on her marital issues then no pt continuing too.

Saw him last nite for dinner. Passed him back his childhood B&W pic which I have been carrying in my wallet for the past 3 years. I can safely say that I am def on the path to getting over him. Cos I can feel it. The way that I looked & talked to him is def different from my usual self. Its a subtle change.

Haha! Gg to have another detox veg & fruit lunch at work again on wed! Heehee! Hope to do this on a mthly basis so that we can clear our system once in awhile. I will bringing my fav carrots as usual!! Cant wait to eat the capsicums again! Hee! Love it!

2009-07-19T20:27:00.003+08:00

Had dinner at Toa Payoh's Melben Seafood last nite with family celebrating mommy's 62th bday! Haha! Ate the yummy butter crab which is finger licking good. Total damage was like $233 i think. Haha, shared between my brother & sister cos I bought the cake.

Had lunch with KCW at eighteen chefs after working half day before going for my 1.5 hrs body massage. Its been too long since I last did my massage. Shoulders & back felt real stiff and tight.

Kat just informed me that she needs to take urgent leave cos her son is having fever so I guess it will be a busy day for me tmr since we are one person down. Nvm, we'll survive! As usual, heehee! Hope that her son recover from fever soon cos I heard that he is gg to have some tests soon.

Ate salad on tues & fri last week with my colleagues. Haha! Some kinda detox regime that TT wanna try. So I contributed carrots & thousand island salad cream. TT brought capiscums and lettuces. Enjoyed eating all the uncooked vegs cos I prefer salad to cooked vegs actually. Yummy! We shld do this once a month. Hee!

PS: Hope that my dear classmate Vania, whose birthday falls on the same day as my mommy's bday would be in gd health & nothing will happened to her! Best wishes to U on your bday Vania!

Time to take a breather finally

2009-07-13T22:50:00.002+08:00

Its finally time that we can take a breather after chionging the oral presentation the week before & the essay this week. Really shack after doing these 2 things back to back. But I SURVIVED!!! Wahahah! And that's the most impt thing!

Thoroughly enjoyed class today cos Chris Fong is as humorous & radical as ever. He posed a qns to us asking "Will U accept me if U really really know who I am?"

Not everyone can accept another person for who he/she is totally. It is really quite hard. But at least I am happy to say that I can really accept someone for who they are even though I know their weaknesses & their bad points but I willingly accept him. But sad to say, he can't do the same cos his mind is always influenced by what other pple says. But nvm, life goes on & I am glad to say that I'm coping with life w/o him and he will remain in my past. The feelings 4 him are disappearing bit by bit. I guess it shld be the same for him too. I can't force him to love me like how he used to and I can't and also will not force him to accept me again. Its time that we have a closure to our r/s... Its time to move on... I will not wait anymore... Though I will miss the memories that we used to have but then they are memories after all. The future is what I look forward to and I can't wait to embrace it.

I believe that there is a reason that things happen. Its just a matter of whether it is for a good or bad reason only. But its ok, I don't really care now cos when the time comes for me to find out, I will. So la la la..... I shall wait & see. *wink*

Haha, oh ya, pple have been asking me abt the cute ang moh physiotherapist in CGH. Haha! Basically he is this 22 yr old cute looking chap that my colleague like. Haha but she's too shy to talk to him. Then as another colleague went for her physio 1 day, guess wat? Ya, her physiotherapist is him lor! She happy sia! Haha! She got his name & then went to googled him. So she found his Myspace page, facebook profile and all that. Haha! So basically we all know quite a bit abt him already. He lives quite near the loyang condo that my dad bought, haha!!! Now I'm just waiting 4 a chance to talk to him. Haha! I see him at the canteen during lunch everyday to buy food. Heehee! He's a nice eye candy to look at.

Hopefully that my colleague will pluck up the courage to talk to him one day. Haha! If I like someone, I will go 4 it. I dun give a damn about what other pple think. I live my own life! If i live my life for others, I will nvr ever be happy. Cos its putting other pple's needs above my own & I can't do that everytime. I might be able to do it sometimes but not always. I like the way that the ang mohs live their life. They dare to go out of their comfort zone & work in other countries. But a lot of us dare not venture out of our comfort zones due to various reasons. I hope that when I am older, maybe when I am about 35, I will have the courage to do that. I want to practise what I've learn in Spore 1st before practising it elsewhere. The world is mine to conquor!

Feeling so tired now

2009-07-10T21:13:00.005+08:00

Haiz, Just came bk from Yew Tee cos Qiqi & I went to attend a course on Children therapeutic group skills today. Traveled 3 hrs in total 2 ways just to attend the course. Next time prob gonna drive there so that I dun have to travel like nuts again.

Nearly fell asleep during the last 20mins in class cos of the trainer. Haha! Think I am too tired to do my essay now cos i can't think at all. I shall do it tmr. ARGH! Brain not wkg man!

Gg to spend the whole of tmr & sun at home to do my essay! Haiz! Hopefully I dun have to take urgent leave on Monday to do my essay man! I am gg to take about 4 days of unpaid leave this mth liao leh! Xian! Me very poor!

Gg to do my brazilian wax on wed at Jalan Eunos. Its a private house & the therapist decorated 1 room so that she could do a home based business. She was featured on Straits Times before too. Decided to try her this time as its nearer than Pacific Plaza where I've been doing my brazilian wax for the past 2 years at Honey Pot. Still have 1 last session with them. If the jalan Eunos gal is not gd, then most likely I've to continue a new pkg with Honey Pot. But I really dun like to travel there even though bus no 5 can take me there direct but its a 1 hr long bus ride. But driving to Jalan Eunos prob takes me only 15 mins & its cheaper. $46 as compared to $55.

Then maybe next fri can book a massage session too. Its been more than 2 mths since I last went for my massage & my shoulders & back area are aching! I miss my massage therapist!!! Haha! She's a nice lady. Will massage my back area for a longer time whenever she doesn't have back to back customers. I can't wait to finish the assignment so that we can finally rest & relax!

Oh ya Harry Potter is coming out on 16th July! Who wants to go & watch it with Qiqi & me?? Hands up!

Stressful nights

2009-07-08T23:15:00.003+08:00

Haiz, just started on my essay. But the word count is only half of what I am supposed to write lor! Think I might need to take time off tmr to write my essay already! Argh! So xian man! My plan was to keep my time off for my attachment so that I dun have to take so much leave! Sickening!

Can someone please give me some inspiration to write my essay? I can't seems to be able to create sentences! Help help!

Ok time to slp liao! Eyes are closing already! Ciaos pple! Tmr might be skipping class to write my essay. Haiz! No choice, if not I really don't have enough time even if i don't go out at all during the weekend. :(

Doing assignments readings

2009-07-07T22:48:00.002+08:00

Xian, its back to the old assignment readings days again. I'm wondering how am I gg to find 10 ref for my 2500 words essay.

Also I only have from wed till sun to write the 2500 words essay & I haven't even vomit out a single word YET! This is my slackest semester man! Never have I ever been so slack in my life! To those who knw me, they will know I'm always the one who start my research early early type. But this time, I actually started researching only this week. Unless U count those research that I did for my oral presentation. Ok la, maybe I can get about 2 reference from the oral presentation research but what about my other 8 references!!!??? AH!!

I need to start writing from tmr onwards & I need to write about 500 words each day. Lecturer wants us to submit both hard & soft copy leh! So we can't submit late on the deadline no matter what! Bleah!!!

Oh ya, on a happier note, I just had durians!! Hee parents bought like 7 of those $1 durians from Bedok! Quite nice actually. Haha! Took some pics! View them on FB! Hee! My facial expressions are those of pure bliss! Give me durians any day man! Yummy!

There is no joy in walking away from love.

2009-07-06T23:13:00.002+08:00

There is no joy in walking away from love. I thought about his first step away from me. And I remembered how heavily mine had been. How hard I tried not to stumble. How raw my heart felt. I remembered the tears as soon as I closed the door. The beating of my heart. I remember letting go of the love and hope that I’d held onto for a very long time. And how alone I felt in my heartbreak. I knew that I would and could move on but that’s all I knew. How and when was a mystery.

Yeah, moving on is hard & the road ahead is tough but I know that I can do it. I wish him all the best in his life!

From now on, I won't be contacting him as often as what I used to before. I guess we'll still go out as friends time to time. I am not gg to cut off all ties with him. Its just that, he will just be a normal friend to me from now on. I will not deny the memories that we used to have, be they good or bad cos no matter what, they help me to grow as a person.

For now, I am really letting go...

Counter & tagboard added

2009-07-05T18:46:00.001+08:00

Yippy! Added a counter and also a tagboard. Haha! But tagboard is super old lor. Taken from my old old blog. Can still see Vania & Qiqi's tag there from ages ago! Haha! Me lazy to do up a new tagboard so here it is. Don't complain ok! At least I got a new blog! Whee!

Feel free to tag ok?

Tmr have oral presentation! Bleah! Xian xian xian! Hate oral presentations cos its always hard to coordinate with so many pple. Haiz! I just hope that next sem dun have anymore oral presentations can????

Later gotta do more research for my assignment liao. I really can't wait for this year to be over. Then I wanna take a 1 mth's break to recharge & go somewhere to seek peace.

Sometimes I feel that I am kinda lost and I need guidance to find who I really am again. Its like part of me changes every year. What used to be in me when I was 15 is no longer in me when I am 30. Especially my innocence. But other than innocence, there are a lot of things which I have lost. I hope that I will be able to gain back some of them.

New Blog! New beginning!

2009-07-05T17:55:00.001+08:00

Hey all!

This is my new blog! It also mark a new beginning for me! Just don't count on me to blog regularly! Be thankful if I update twice a mth ok! Wahahah!

Love U guys!

Muacks!